Tuesday, February 03, 2009

What do you mean, the World doesn't revolve around me?

Back when the old general manager at work was still here, she'd often ask something, and I'd have the answer within seconds. Even with songs .... something would come on the radio, and we'd question the name & artist and viola! I had the answer from just a few lyrics.

She started calling me the Google Queen.

I am highly addicted to Google and they are my #1 search engine. At this point I don't think I could even name another. It's not necessary to know anything beyond Google.

I've even used Google for work purposes; gaining information on potential new customers that left me with a bad feeling (remind me of that story later, I'll tell it).

No doubt, I have Mad Google Skillz.

So, the other night I Google the name of my ex serious boyfriend and find that he's married, with 2 children; a boy and a girl. And then the strangest thing happened....there was this empty hole and a gnawing in my gut.

I mean, of course he got married & had a family! Afterall, *I* did, why shouldn't he? It was a reaction I was not expecting to have. What did I think? That he was still waiting for me?! Totally irrational. I know better.

This leads me to a couple questions....have you Googled an ex and found something shocking? But more importantly, does this label us as Google Stalkers?


Jess said...

I didn't have my experience through google, but through myspace. I found out that my ex had gotten married, had a little boy, and a set of b/g twins. I dealt with some feelings over that that I wasn't prepared to feel either. We talk here and there through Facebook and through e-mail now and sometimes it still feels weird. He was my first serious boyfriend...and given that I only had 2 serious relationships (Andy being one of them) it makes sense that I held a special place for him in my heart, but I too was not prepared to feel what I felt...and still do feel at times. I don't know that I can really explain the feeling though if I had to put it into words. I just have to realize that he'll probably always have a special place in my heart.

Jenni Jiggety said...

Yes, I have...and yes, it does! LOL!

But if being a google stalker is wrong, I don't want to be right!