Monday, January 16, 2006

Spiraling

All of a sudden I feel like things are spiraling ... I'm feeling a bit "lost" and "out of control" (for lack of better words this time of night).

I almost feels like I did right before I went on meds.

Those blue pills have been out of my life for a good 3.5 months now. I don't want to go back. I don't want to depend on them.

4 comments:

Jenn said...

Don't be afraid to go back on the meds or at least going to see the doctor...let them help you out to become the wife/mother your hubbie and kids need!!! ((((hugs))))

Mackey said...

I have been on Effexor for 10 years now. I used to feel the smae as you but then my Dr. said to me that I should feel no more shame than a person who has to take Insulin to control their diabetes. When he said that it hit home with me. I have tried many times to give up the anti depressants but the deooression always seems to coming sneeking back. The first thing that seems to return is the anxiety attacks & the inability to cope with the smallest things.
Now I have made peace with the fact that my brain doesn't make enough seratonin & I have to have the antideppressants to replace it. I am actually thankful because I come from a long line of deppressed people:) & I have heard the stories of my Moms & Grammas suffering from it. I am so thankful we have antidepressants now.
No need to feel any shame my friend. GO to the Dr.s That is an order!!:)

Rose said...

Hopefully it's just due to a little bit of stress that you've been going through the last few days and once the stress is gone the feeling will be gone too. If not you should call the doc. Sorry to hear you are feeling this way.

Amanda said...

I know exactly how you feel. I started feeling this way very recently and have started back on my little blue pills (actually they're green right now since the dosage is smaller LOL). If it takes something small like this to make you feel happier than don't feel ashamed or afraid to talk to your doctor about it. I hope things get better soon!