Tuesday, April 01, 2008

Life and Death

Yesterday Melissa asked of her readers, "If you could live to be 150, would you?"

I read this while I was at work, and on my way home, I found myself thinking about it.

And suddenly this overwhelming, panicky feeling hit me. I know I'm not going to live forever, and there's no telling exactly when my time will be up. And I'm not sure that I'm afraid to die (well, maybe a little....), I think I'm more afraid of leaving behind those I love.

I was suddenly overcome with this feeling that I need to live life, and I need to live life NOW.

I realized that while there are days that I'm unhappy with things, I really do enjoy my life. I enjoy those that are in my life at this moment, and I enjoy what I do for a living. I suddenly thought to myself "All this could be gone at any given moment" and I found myself on the verge of tears.

There's so much I want to do, so much I want to see, and so much life left to live. I hope that clock doesn't stop ticking anytime soon.....

6 comments:

Kat said...

Exactly what I was thinking. I am not afraid of death and I don't want to live until 150 but I do hope that I get some more time to live life to the full.

Melissa said...

LOL! I guess I'm evoking all kinds of feeling lately!

I'm with you gals, I'm not ready to leave this earth right now...I hope none of us have to any sooner than we're ready!

Candance said...

I am so glad to know I'm not the only one who thinks about such things. I don't so much know if I want to live to be 150-maybe if the aging could stop right here this very day,thank ya very much-but I have this fear of leaving my kids before they're grown. I send myself into a tizzy over that at least weekly.

Jules said...

it is crazy to think about it...everything that would be left behind...speically when you're young, but i can't imagine what it would feel like if i had kids....it's hard enough to know one day my parents will be gone...i tear up just thinking about them not being in my life...So, i guess like you said, all we can do is live for today....have no regrets..and remember to tell our loved one how much we love them and how much they mean to us so they are never left wondering....

Burgh Baby's Mom said...

I'm right there with you!

Brandy said...

I totally agree with the whole not afraid of dying so as leaving my children before theyre grown. Last year was a hard year I lost both my dad and my step dad and while all of us were grown my step dad left behind a 17 year old daughter who was just 3 months from graduating when he died. I want to be there for all my childrens special moments, but if I dont have that kind of time left then I want to live life to the fullest and show those I love how much I love them.