Thursday, June 28, 2007

Parental Advisory

Online Dating

Ha! What I find funny is that the first word that got "tagged" for the R rating ...

'pain'

So, all that time I went through all my stomach issues?? That was R rated, huh? Interesting.

What happens if I start saying things like cock or tits or .... gasp, porn!? LOL

Seriously. I think I'm going to have to re-rate my blog now! ;)

Monday, June 25, 2007

Two Monsters, 6 Lives

The monsters I speak of are Christopher Vaughn and Bobby Cutts, Jr. Two men all over the recent nationwide news .... names that are now known from coast to coast.

Christopher Vaughn, arrested for the murders of his wife, and their three children. Bobby Cutts, arrested for the murder of his girlfriend and unborn daughter.

These two stories sucked me in, and I waited for new developments, more information; surfing the web and watching the news. I prayed for Jessie Davis and her unborn baby girl, hoping upon hope that she'd be found alive and well.

Much to my dismay, just hours after learning that Christopher Vaughn had been arrested for the murders of his family, we found that Jessie's body had been recovered.

Why these stories pulled at heartstrings? The Vaughn family was from a suburban Chicago town, not far from me. When something of this magnitude happens this close to home, it sticks with you. And when a young woman, pregnant with her second child disappears, with the awful reality looming that foul play was involved, it hits you. She was my age, and a mother at that. I can't imagine there being many women out there that this didn't hit home to.

Imagine, these lives .... all taken by someone they loved, and thought loved them in return.

Christopher Vaughn, shooting his family in cold blood, and moreso, from what I've read, those children were each shot twice, yet his wife, only once. Why? As if it weren't enough to murder the family, inflicting more gunshot wounds to those that were the most innocent. Children....all under the age of 13.

It sickens me, upsets me and makes me fear the future. Do we know who we can trust? When stories like this come to light, how do we really know we can trust those that are closest to us?

My heart breaks for the families and loved ones these 6 lives have left behind. For the grandparents of the Vaughn children, and for their family and friends and those of Kimberly Vaughn's. For the family and friends of Jessie Davis, and most importantly, for the 2 year old little boy, Blake that she leaves behind.

May you all find peace and comfort.

Rest in Peace:
Kimberly Vaughn
Abigayle Vaughn
Cassandra Vaughn
Blake Vaughn

Jessie Davis
Chloe

And may those responsible for their deaths rot in hell.

Saturday, June 16, 2007

Tag, I'm it!

Lacey tagged me, so I guess it's time for me to pop in here.

These are the rules…. each player starts with 7 random facts about themselves on their Blog. People who are tagged need to blog 7 facts about themselves and post the rules as well. At the end of their blog list 7 people you are tagging. Let them know that they are tagged by leaving them a comment. So, time for my 7 random facts:

1) I met Mike online in January 1999; we officially started dating that March; we'll be celebrating our 7th anniversary this year (good grief!) ;)
2) Some of my best friends are 10+ years older than me
3) I have only lived in a total of 3 towns my entire life .... the first for 23 years, the 2nd for 2 years and almost 2 years in the current
4) I fell in love with Disneyworld during our trip there last September....I CANNOT wait to go back
5) Photography is my escape....I love it, and it depresses me when I'm not able to shoot
6) I have ingrown toenails and they are a b@t#h
7) My cat's name is Cosmo -- but he's often called MoMo, Mo, Mo-Man, Mousetafats, Herman, Raymond, Mo-Dog, Mochie, Humphrey Mogart or whatever else springs to mind

So, with that I tag ...... Katrina, Rose, Mackey, Hippy, and that's it because others on my blogroll have already been tagged by Lacey!

Sunday, June 03, 2007

Cubs Win!, but my mood just took a turn to quite shitty

Saw the Cubs play today. With the current losing streak they were on, I was hopeful it wouldn't continue and that I'd be attending a winning game. When they opened the game with base hits and a Grand Slam all in the first inning, I had an idea that it was going to be a great game. We watched as some dark clouds and cooler breezes rolled in off the lake, but the rain held off and the clouds rolled by to bring in sunshine for the rest of the game. The skies opened up as we were on our way back home after seeing the Cubs beat the Braves 10-1.

It was a nice day, but of course, there's something that can bring my mood back down. Reading up on some current events in some friends lives on myspace, and I come across someone that just started a new job - and their salary is listed as $75,000 - $100,000 a year. Yeah, I know you can lie (I've seen kids list $100,000 + and they are barely out of high school, so I'm sure they're full of shit), but the salary listed while at the previous job was almost as high. A college & grad school graduate, so I imagine there may be some hefty student loans to pay off, but with that pay scale -- how long could it take while you're single, renting an apartment and living the high life with nearly no responsibility other than some bills.

I guess I'm bitter. It's hard to be happy about something like that when my husband doesn't even have a salary right now, and likely will never make anywhere near that kind of thing. Not that I expect him to, but how is it that people just "fall" into these things?? Yes, there's the degrees and all that, but trust me when I say that I know good money was being made even prior to having the degrees to back it up.

We're barely making ends meet each month, and only because we're getting unemployment. That doesn't last forever (and it's been nearly 5 months), and I have no idea what we'll do if a job doesn't come our way soon.

I've been really trying not to fret over this, but I'm starting to really worry; really starting to get stressed. How much longer can we make it? Moreso, are we going to be forced to take a job that will take priority over family time?

I think that might be what worries me the most. I can't go back to him being gone weeknights and missing dinner with the family. I can't go back to him working all weekend long, missing out on chances for visits to the zoo, or playing in the backyard, or going over to the rec center pool. I can't do it ..... I enjoy the things we can do as a family, and as much as it has sucked for him to NOT be working the last 4.5 months, it's been wonderful being able to do things together.

Is it possible that he'll find a job, so that we can get by and that we'll still be able to spend time together as a family?

Wednesday, May 30, 2007

Where have I gone?

Yes, I know. It has been quite awhile since I've posted.

I know there have been questions about my health, and how the medicine seemed to be working. The medicine ran out, I never got anymore and I haven't had anymore of those symptoms. I honestly don't know what it could have been. There have been a few "attacks" which I always blamed on IBS in the past, but it was nothing like the crushing, overwhelming chest pain or sharp pain that seemed obviously like it was my gallbladder.

So, I'm feeling well in that respect, but now it's the time for allergies. I've been dealing with the sneezing, the congestion, the itchy throat, the sore throat, the coughing, the itchy eyes and skin. Some days it's bad, some days it's tolerable and some days it's REALLY bad.

Mike is still out of a job. It's been 4.5 months. We're hoping that this long period of time is just needed in order to direct us to the right job. I'm really trying not to get worked up about it -- I thought I was doing well with that, but maybe that's why I was having such health problems. It is stressful, and I do worry, but I'm really just trying to take it one day at a time, and hope that there's something out there that hasn't presented itself yet. We'll keep searching.

On the kid front - they are growing like weeds. My little boy, my firstborn; he graduated from preschool last week, on May 23. I've got a memory book of many things he's been working on throughout the school year, lots of pictures of him during class and their special events (fire safety, Halloween, his birthday, bike safety trail, etc). I can't believe my baby boy is off to kindergarten in the fall. High school graduating class of 2020!!!!!!

And my little princess. Getting ready to turn 3 the end of next month. THREE!!!! Already!!!!! She'll be having a My Little Pony party, and it's about all she can talk about. She's a bundle of energy, very much like her big brother. They both keep us very busy!

This Memorial Day weekend the rec center finally opened in our community. So there have been visits to the pool, and trying to workout on a somewhat regular basis.

Plus this time of year always brings a calendar full of events. Went to the Sox game last Friday, and this Sunday we'll be going to the Cubs game. We're seeing Michael Buble live in July, and I'm hopefully going on an overnight girls getaway in Galena in August. Not to mention the BBQs, birthday parties, Wii bowling nights, girl's nights, etc that are planned throughout the summer.

Busy time of year, but I sure do love it.

Friday, April 20, 2007

Health 101

The procedure on Monday went well. There was nothing visibly wrong. I have 2 weeks worth of Nexium to try. Most of the time I don't have any pain, but occassionally I'll get a twinge or a quick, shooting pain. The doctor felt it was probably stress/IBS related. Could very well be. But, we'll see.

As for another health issue, my rowdy 5 year old boy was goofing around, fell and gashed his head. 3 stitches and a little bit of swelling later, he's fine.

Receiving a phone call at work, all while hearing screaming in the background saying "MY HEAD ......... MY HEAD ....... IT HURTS!!!!!" does not leave one feeling very calm.

So it was another trip to the immediate care facility. I swear, they are going to know us on a first name basis soon.

Sunday, April 15, 2007

Still looking for an answer

The ultrasound I had on my liver & gallbladder came back all clear. The pain remained.

My doctor suggested an EGD (upper GI endoscopy, I believe is the proper term). It's first thing tomorrow morning, and I'm NOT looking forward to it. I am freaked out about something going down my throat. Everyone I've talked to that has had one, says it was no big deal, and that I won't be aware of what's going on anyway. Still, I would rather cancel and just not go.

The pain has gotten better, but I know it's probably best to go anyway. From what I've read, the pain can go away at times and there may be pain free periods. Something caused all the pain, and I'd rather try to get answers than wait for that horrible pain to start again.

A friend still believes it's my gallbladder, and that I'm going to end up needing to have it out. I prefer not to have surgery, but if that is indeed what caused the pain, so be it -- I'd rather not suffer.

I'm just worried now, though, that it's something more serious. And I'm worrying about my blood pressure. Even the last time when it was so high, the doctor didn't say anything about seeing another doctor for it, or express any big concern towards it. When it was 'borderline' at my annual with my OB/GYN, she just wanted to 'keep an eye on it' as I was going to start on birth control pills (I haven't, because I'm freaked out about the stroke warnings and my blood pressure).

I just want to be healthy. I want my BP to go down, I want answers to what caused the pain, and I want the pain to stay way. Is that too much to ask?